Celebrating New Years' Eve..

It’s the New Years’ Eve , I’m sitting here watching HIMYM exactly the way I’ve planed it to be.

Yup! This time no celebration , nothing . Not coz I don’t want to , but because things have drastically changed. I’m in a new place where I don’t really have company except a tiny little girl who smiles at me and wanna play with me.

I miss the running and wandering around the market to buy the decorative items and snacks.

I miss the time when I literally wanted to be online to talk to someone , but couldn’t as I had to rush to the veranda , to brain-storm with my friends on new ways to decorate our floor.

I miss the time when we were still busy sticking the balloons to the roof when its just 30 seconds before the midnight - before we officially welcome the new year.

I miss jumping in the air and bursting the balloons.

I miss cutting the cake with my friends.

I miss rubbing the cream on my friends’ face.

I miss clicking those pictures.

I miss burning those crackers.

And when we had enough , we used to sit on the stairs and make plans for the morning, yeah! I miss that too.

Yes! Things have changed a lot.

Then , I used be with friends , sometimes truly happy and sometimes feeling lonely inside though I had a wonderful company outside.

Now , I’m lonely , both inside and outside.

I sit here , travelling back to the memory lane ; thinking of those pretty sweet conversations , with love in the air; people showcasing creativity ; pulling each others leg ; In short , when we all had fun ‘together’.

I miss my home.

I miss you.

Here I’m watching the HIMYM series , just the way I planned the New Years’ Eve to be!

..

Can you tell me something ?
Honestly..
don't you miss me?
not at all??

Thankyou God!

Oh dear god!

Till now , Till this very moment ,

I’ve always wondered what you want from me?

Why are you placing so many hurdles in front of me?

Why do I find thorns in my path?

Why do I fall down with every step I take?

And yes!

I did ask “why me?”

Now , I realized it god.

I know why you made me face all those troubles,

Those fights ,

The way I struggled at every point of my life,

And I’m still struggling .

Now , I know god..

You want me to see the reality,

The true face of the world!

The way people cheat you,

The way people betray you,

The way people fake their identities.

Now , I’ve seen the true color of people whom I thought is a care-taker.

Someone I can trust.

Someone I can look-up to.

Someone once I’ve believed in.

Yeah! , once I believed , but stopped it long back.

Still , I had some kind of , I don’t know , hope may be , that he’s good.

Now, everything is clear god.

Today,

I announce the death of a person,

A person who stole my innocence .

A person who broke my trust on him ,

Who left me incompetent to trust anyone,

And the worst of all ,

Was once my identity.

R.I.P !

P.S : I don’t give a damn about others. No , nomore.

Thankyou God!

Birthday Wish!

The clock has just strike 12 ,

A new day has begun.

A day when many people come and wish me ; bless me ;

Shower love and gifts and what not.

Today is the day , when I’m treated like a Princess.

Nothing I ask is refused.

Everyone is around me,

Surprising me,

Trying to make me happy.

They ask me to make a wish,

The Birthday Wish!

Something rational rather practical.

But at this moment ,

I wanna be alone , silent .

Wanna look at the sky,

Search for the stars

And make a silent wish..

A wish for a person ,

A person , whom right now ,

Yeah! Right now , I can go and hug so tight ,

Cry on his shoulders.

Who can kiss away the pain,

Who can wipe off the tears,

Who can just sit with me,

Who can just take me into his arms,

And make me feel safe.

Someone who can set me free.

And yeah!

Someone who can look me in the eyes and

Say “I missed you” and really means it.

(Touch wood)

P.S. I Love You :-*

I don't understand...

mom says "your brother is far away from us , he's alone ; he has noone to care for him ; don't hurt him"
and "I'm here to take care of you".

and I ask myself " why do I still feel so lonely ? "

Some Of Those Unspoken Words..

If I tell you that I miss you ,

Would you whisper in ears that you miss me too?!

If I tell you that its been ages since I laughed,

Would you tickle me and make me laugh?!

If I tell you that I wanna talk to you,

Would you sit with me and listen even if it’s the silence?!

If I tell you that , I wanna drench in the rain,

Would you come and dance with me in the rain?!

If you see me crying,

Would you come back and hug me tight?!

If I tell you that I need you,

Would you come and stay with me forever?!

I know we are thousands of miles apart,

But there are a few relations which doesn’t depend on the ‘physical’ distance,

And ours is one such relation.

I know , its been awhile since we spoke,

But some relations doesn’t need words , even silence gives it a perfect sense.

And yes! , ours is one such relation.

I know you broke my heart , and I’m sure you are hurt too,

But in true relationships , no matter how many times the other person hurts , heart loves them more.

Yup! , I love you !!

P.S. I Love You :-*

can't let you go.. :(

I PROMISE!

This is for you.. :) :’(

I Love You by Avril Lavigne

lala, lalalala, lala, lalala

I like your smile

I like your vibe

I like your style

But that's not why I love you

And I, I like the way, you're such a star

But that's not why I love you, hey

Do you feel, do you feel me, do you feel what I feel too

Do you need, do you need me, do you need me-e-e

You're so beautiful

But that's not why I love you

I'm not sure you know

That the reason I love you, is you

Being you, just you

Yea the reason I love you

Is all that we've been through

And that's why I love you

lala, lalalala, lala, lalala

I like the way you misbehave

When we get wasted

But that's not why I love you

And how you keep your cool when I am complicated

But that's not why I love you, hey

Do you feel, do you feel me, do you feel what I feel too

Do you need, do you need me, do you need me-e-e

You're so beautiful

But that's not why I love you

And I'm not sure you know

That the reason I love you, is you

Being you, just you

Yea the reason I love you

Is all that we've been through

And that's why I love you

Yeaaa

ohhhh, ohhhh

Even though we didn't make it through

I am always here for you

yea-a-a

You're so beautiful

But that's not why I love you

I'm not sure you know

That the reason I love you, is you

Being you, just you

Yea the reason I love you

Is all that we've been through

And that's why I love you

la la, la la la la (oh ohhh)

la la, la la la la (that's why I love you)

la la, la la la la (oh ohhh)

la la, la la la la (that's why I love you)

P.S . I Love You :-*